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10:14 pm, Monday, June 30, 2008

1. seriously hossan last night was seriously good. i am so in love with him. and his singing. and the songs picked. and the company. (heart) (heart) i think i am going crazy. hossan leong is the bomb. his brother is rather cute too. that's it man, i'm so gonna listen to 98.0 his morning talk show on my way to sch tmr. i hope i wont die laughing on the bus.

2. thanks angel and angel's mummy for fetching me to sch today! (: haha stupid BSB, and ew so gross cannibalism blog post. i'm thinking whether i should put the gory post here. haha no harm eh? since no one reads anyway (: congrats on passing maths angel! :D

3. "empowering ladies and leaders of tomorrow". how true. i'm so proud of yuqi for being in exco! yay 3 cheers to my dear! :D i know you've always wanted that right? dreams do come true! and i'm extreamly proud of my dear pokpok yuexi for being CRESCENTIAN OF THE YEAR! you get your name engraved on that weird plague to be displayed at the go. (: 3 cheers for pokpok! haha and for me, i'm gonna go back for speech day on the 26th to get my silver award. gahh. better than nothing i suppose. and serena's in council! seeeee leaders of tmr. haha crescent lives up to her legacy.

4. visit back to crescent today (again) with adelicia, shuyi and lois! haha camwhored like siao. and i think i'm going back too often, teachers dont find it surprising to see me around anymore. not like it was in the first place.

5. rushed back from crescent to hold the first bod meeting today. not as bad as i thought. we can work quite well huh (: well, somehow, in the last 10min i guess. at least we managed to plan out 4 meetings? yay clap clap clap

6. i can't believe i got more than a single digit of maths. (: 24/55. fail but still, haha it's no longer single digits omg. i think ms lin will be so proud of me. (:

7. seems like i cannot get my absolut colours already ):

From the Avenue Q musical (which i'm dying to watch. and cannot get the $15 tickets for; which hossan totally sang last night) - meaning of the song is so for pokpok. haha i really hope things on her side will last. (:

There's a fine, fine line

There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye."
I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,
But there's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity, I've got to close the door
And walk away...
Oh...

There's a fine, fine line between together and not
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime...

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

12:14 pm, Saturday, June 28, 2008

okay, finally back to a normal post.

yesterday was fun fun FUN to the max. hoho (:

went back to crescent after frigging horrigible h1 math paper (which if i can get 1 mark out of the total of the 55, i'm counted v lucky alrdy) to shift all the fwa books back and collect my o'lvl cert!

i think crescent is getting very foreign now. cuz mt wasn't in sch ytd, and ms zhao, mrs heng, ms lin weren't like free ytd, there was practically no one that we could find to eat lunch with. but i really really need to say thank you to my dear pokpok! for helping me shift all the books and files, and making like 20 gazillion trips to and fro, from the foyer to the central staircase, and from the central staircase to the mama store. (: 2 people carrying like 4 boxes of files, and i think 10+ stacks of notebooks will die. i was so sweaty and all, look like i've lost 2kg ytd man. (: stupid pokpok kept laughing at me also when i was dying halfway. haha. and to think at tj we had 4 people to help, and each of us took like 4 or 5 trips each to the arts hub to get a cab. and have to load and unload from the cab. sigh.

anw, the o'lvl cert is preety!! :D

and i truly enjoyed my 30cents chin chow, 60cents (price went up by 10cents ):) ice longan and the always-so-wonderful "chao fan jia dan" (: hehehe it's one of the cheapest and nicest food i've ever eaten for a long long time. sigh, crescent canteen food is nice afterall. to think we've been complaining non stop for like 4 years omg.

met mr lee (both), mdm lim (thanks for the resources!), mr tan ty and mrs lau (eeks! :D) hahaha at least the touch is still not gone (contradictory eh). and grace and qixuan! haha we were thinking of having a g2 class outing soon. sigh. and ohoh i met joyce (ng) at kino later in the day as well. seems like we all miss g2 quite badly. but it's weird as well, as in we can survive without each other, but when u start seeing so many at the same time, u just wish that you were still in g2, having that little corner of the class on the 3rd floor that you can claim your own. (: where you can dump all the files and papers, but have to hurry up pack with the councillors came to do cleaniness check! haha. and i still rmb the time i was on the cleanliness duty. so funny can. purposely gave my class the highest points and we from the dirtiest class became the cleanest class in a week! :D those were the days. sigh. and i still rmb cecilia and her oh-so-messy table (and hair!) haha. but she was a really great partner man.

anyhows, met up with angel and chun han and nan xiao afterwards and we chilled out at the coffee bean. omg this couple so shamelessly slept like right smack in the middle of the coffee bean, with the girl lying on that guy's shoulder. and the guy just slept like that! how can he sleep lor, like there's no support?!?! and he gotta support the girl?! surprised he didnt fall of the chair man. and after they woke up which is like 30min later, they started their PDA, frenching, touching here and there, inside outside, everywhere. OMG. the pervert and social escort = PS (i love you!) had a super super hilarious time laughing until we could train abs already!

and the highlight of the post exam day was to meet up with the g2 sakae gang! hehe. (: the last time we met was like after o'lvls man. sigh, those were the days (: eddy hurry up send the photos! cynthy, eddy, heidy, kay, amelia. love the all. ate at waraku (and bumped into dee! again haha) and took many many retarded shots by the river. and many many very scandelous shots in the restaurant. everyone grew preetier! haha like they all have the "im so in love" look. and i think i've become older and more weathered ): but pokpok say i didnt change at all. haha okayy. celebrated the first half of the year babies (cynthy and heidy!) birthday and just basically laughed the night away. :D yay cant wait for us to meet up soon again!

taiwan immersion taiwanese kids are coming over to stay on 26 july. until 8 aug. eeeks! 26 july is like crescent speech day dammit. ): i hope i wont miss it man. if not i'm so gonna go for speech day (haha what a bad buddy i am). and im gonna be going over on 22nd nov to dec 9 (winks super a lot to limin), i hope i wont come back with a weird taiwanese twang, and act cute actions (ew).

i'm very excited for tmr's outing w my big sister! :D

to pokxy: cheer up pal! :D dont needa get so upset over it k, i'm sure you will be able to work things out! meanwhile, my shoulder's here for you to lean on, anytime!

12:06 pm,

How Deep Is Your Love - The Bird and the Bee

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And its me you need to show

Chorus:
How deep is your love
I really need to learn
cause were living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
Youre the light in my deepest darkest hour
Youre my saviour when I fall
And you may not think
I care for you
When you know down inside
That I really do
And its me you need to show

There's something seriously wrong with blogger. grr. first my tagboard disappears and a take gazillion attempts to post this lyrics of the song i'm currently in love with up. ): and the font and size is all screwed up. maybe i should just switch to livejournal or smth

10:23 pm, Thursday, June 26, 2008

-postsecret

i dont think i understand myself either.

1 more day to liberation! can't wait can't wait! :D it's not even the end yet and i'm already playing like mad hehe. last paper: maths. duh what do you think.

i'm typing on the keyboard now like i'm trying to play the piano, the lazy method. no wonder i keep needing to backspace. sigh sigh.

it makes me wonder why all mr good lookings are gay. sad know. look at wentworth miller, bryan wong, hossan leong. (okay good looking in my opinion, as you know i have weird tastes) what a great loss to the world. ):

something i've learnt today: people that collect notebooks are trying to fill up that gap in their life that they cannot accomplish (something like that, eh angel what's it?) and i think it's very true. just look at my whole notebook treasure chest and u'll know. (:

1 more day.

can't wait to go eat the fried rice at crescent tmr! HOHOHO.

edit.

ARGH. what's wrong with the stupid tagboard. grr.

9:02 am, Tuesday, June 24, 2008

http://www.gaydar.co.uk/hossan
http://blog.power98.com.sg/hossan/

:O :O :O :O :O :O :O :O

oh wells, i cant wait to watch his show!

11:49 pm, Friday, June 20, 2008

i'm at pokxy's house now (:
ahhh cant believe absolut colours celebrate gay and lesbian rights ): but i still want a bottle a lot.

my english is getting very limited.

class enemy is the bomb. though it's filled with vulgarities and sexual scenes. sigh, i love watching plays.

off to mug. hehehe. can't believe i'm saying that man. ): ms wong was very nice today to sit down with me from 10 to 4 to crashcourse me econs. i really love teachers like her. (: reminds me of the good old crescent days. sigh.

10:58 pm, Wednesday, June 18, 2008

urgh blogger just screwed up my previous post, cutting out a whole chuck of stuff, which i can't rmb now. urgh. merchant court buffet was damn good. but it's killing me now. i need to lose weight. dunno why, but my english standards are horrendous now. must be cause of chinese lit, but not say my chinese improved either. in fact, it's deproving too.

i miss yiwei. sigh. we haven't met this hols except that day when i went to pick her up from tution. im always the one the cannot make it. shit i feel so guilty now. im so sorry pal! ): we promised to meet every hols we have, but this hols, the meeting was so minimal. we'd been friends for the past 11 years, either i go her house, or we go out tgt. haha and it's weird to know that we used to hate each other like hell. and now we love each other very madly. i really really wanna go out with her, but jcts arearound the corner. and and i havent touched anything except the tiny part of cold war. kill me ):

and and bod have to meet up soon. im starting to feel the stress now, what if the 1st meeting turns out to be a flop? and. wth am i supposed to do on the 1st meeting! ):

10:32 pm,

this is so SEXY. 3rd sept winkwink :D (i bet * will love it too)

eventful week last week.

chocolate buffet was the BOMB. thanks to mt and jim (: i love them a lot. haha though we were all so full already and didnt even have 2nds and we totally didnt eat 32bucks worth of chocolate but it was a really really freat time catching up! well, at least the cat's now out of the bag, and all the juicy juicy updates are out already. hehe. i'll let you'll know about chapter 4 and 5 another time. (: took a lot of crazy photos (waiting for pokxy to send) and we met with a very unusual smurf car! -screams and saw the limited edition white carebear -screams. we seriously owe them both big time man. can't wait to see mt again on 27th (: haha i miss crescent fried rice ):

ohoh and our random phrase to "eh maybe can use the wii to let us be fit" actually came true, because crescent is gonna have 10 wii sets to let crescentians "be fit" oh gosh. i never knew ideas could become reality like that. so fast. so furious.

volunteered for the 30h famine camp last sat. i love love love the teeshirt. and andrew damian kenneth and i had loads of fun doing the registration counter. hehe. (: shall wear the shirt for i&e camp at the end of the year. can't wait! :D speaking of which, I GOT ACCEPTED FOR TAIWAN IMMERSION PROGRAMME! :D :D :D my mum's scared of earthquake and she's not very willing to let me go. sigh sigh. freakin 18 days i hope i'll survive and not turn to a total ah lian when i come back. haha.

chalet on sun, mon, tues. HAHA so fun. A05 came down to play. gosh. i haven't had so much fun for a very long time already! we went to escape, and sat the inverter and all. shit scared. esp the pirate ship. really cannot feel the seat man. and i think * is cute. (: sigh, despite many last minutes pangsehs, i must say that a05 had really been the most bonded class EVER. and i'm missing all the fun times, and every single one of them already. ): even budiman. ):

and study buddy outing ytd was the bomb. <3>

went out with mummy today and bought tons of clothes, esp from the mango sale! and this very very cute pair of flats (one side giraffe!! <3>

come to think of which, my studies are in a mess.

my life is kindda in a mess too. but seeing my pals totally cheer me up. (: cant wait to sleepover this friday yay!

sometimes, i think that since the world is gonna end in 2012, why bother spending the last days of my life studying? (stupid calvin ahhh) and like the fun had, friendships forged and lessons learnt this hols, they're priceless. and definitely worth much much more than the stupid a level cert.

10:42 pm, Thursday, June 05, 2008

im finally back from camp. (phew) though camp can still be improved, i must say it was much much better than what i expected! :D as you can see, im quite a perfectionist, and when things start going wrong, i try very very hard not to freak. camp was filled with many many ups and downs. sorrows and happiness. but i truly enjoyed every (well, most parts) of it. afterall, how can you not like your own camp when ur the one planning it? (okay, actually i didnt really plan much except come out with the timings and venues, and all the logistics blah) :D

day 1

went to camp with loads of expectations. comm was supposed to meet at 7.15 but no one was there yet, except rach and justin. gosh. and before we knew it, the uncle didnt want to open the innospace for us cuz he said we only booked from 9. after much persuasion and confusion later, he finally did. and that was when we realised, that the innospace didnt have any projector at all! :S rushed practically to everywhere in the sch to find a projector and when we found an open classroom with a projector to screen the intro video, the projector had no cable! sigh sigh. rushed to the theaterette to get the cable (thank god it was open) and it really didnt help that some people didnt think it was important, and only stood there to "pour cold water". grr. i really really thought the camp was doomed from the start, and was super worried that things wont go well. that explains the stressed look on my face, sorry guys! but nevertheless, the show has to go on, and i keep telling myself to keep smiling. if not everyone's mood will get affected. sigh, what crap. anyhows, after the participants had all arrived (with like 60% appearing 30min late) we started off with the ice breakers. and i got news at this point in time, that our bunks werent't ready yet, due to taekwondo still using them. ideally, we were supposed to check in during lunch, so i didnt think much about it, since we could just use the innospace to put our stuff. however, this change will just shift our timetable up by 1/2h and rachel got so panicky and all. im so sorry rachie! :( but im so glad ice breakers went well, and everyone got to know their tribe better and had fun (at least). hehe. lunch went smooth as well. until, 1/2 the jcc had to leave for exoro competition. oh my. and then again, got news tt the bunks still cant be used yet, and we had to wait till like 5pm to check in?!?

100 sec no ng was a great game. in charged of the luck station, and haha so funny la, seeing all the people running around and getting so flustered in winning me at throwing the dice and finding the ace in the pack of cards. anw, shit situation again, instead of them completing in 3h, everyone finished in like 1h 30min instead. damn. no back up games, nothing for them to do. and everyone started playing cards. urgh. so fustrating, but im so glad tt i finally learnt how not to blow my top and try to gather everyone and scream so tt they can hear me. sigh. tiring i must say. came up with like back up game of trust fall. but nobody dares to fall except dorea -claps, most of them were playing captains ball instead. sigh. i really stopped hoping that camp would be good cause of so many screw ups in these short few hours, but seeing the efforts everyone had put in really kept me going on. and before we knew it, we had our bunks! yay! :D and then, cock up number 4765865754 came. mrs ang thought that the night walk was gonna like disturb the residences nearby cuz guitar was camping the night before and they got complains. so, she wanted us to scrape the night walk once and for all. damn damn damn. i really felt like smacking everyone then. and wanting started crying. and see her cry i also felt like crying. rach was totally brokenhearted. cant believe she just took the phone and started arguing. we came up with an alternative, that was to push the nightwalk forward to 10pm instead and end at 12. i really really admire rach for having so much composure. seriously, all i was thinking of then was to hurry up slam the phone down. and then, dinner was bad as well, we didnt have enough food, everyone was just going opposite to eat, terry felt damn bad, tried to comfort her, then we went across to buy food back, as well as to unwind a while. and then, it was really like a stab in the heart when we saw people packing their bags and leaving halfway. wanting and i really like cried again, cuz we were thinking, is camp that bad until they are fed up and leaving? really really hated myself for doing such a shit job, our mood was from like 70% become 10% and really really, without the jcc to cry together, i really dunno how to pull through.

but luckily, the night walk was a huge success! and everything just never stopped getting better. lesson learnt: never stop hoping. haha so funny la i acted as a ghost with justin being emo and supposedly trying to protect me. but failed terribly, cuz he ran all the way back laughing in this evil laughter in the dark, totally pulling me along and freaking me out. sigh. and and and after night walk was the best cuz i finally finally was able to sleep out in the open on the field with angel! haha. she's my big sister whom i love very very much (self proclaimed by her). anw, it was just fun looking at the clouds and talking. and i kept seeing black figures but i just didnt dare to say anything. :S can't believe i only slept for 1h that night.

day 2

nothing much really. just hotdogs for breakfast, and i was totally disappointed with some people. cuz they dont know that the timeslot is theirs, and had to keep everyone waiting. sigh. big highlight for the day was the versus games. quite fun i must say. i was in charge of the chicken captains ball station. yes, it's like you throw a chicken instead of a ball. very very gross. and halfway thru the head dropped out. and the leg (drumstick) dropped out. and the poor station master had to go and pick it up, risking getting hit by the chicken. phew, thank god the chicken was always so far away. again, i was with justin. i dont know why but this whole camp im always like together with him. grr. and and and daphne and angel kept disturbing the both of us. tsktsk. me actually. seriously, there's nothing going on between me and him okay. anw, after the big big tribal countdown race i was covered in flour. ew. and the stupid grass was flour filled too. had to like clean up, and i was again, very irritated by someone cuz she just kept bugging me to do something else, or ask what she has to do. i can understand if it's like once or twice, but like everytime. sigh sigh. my patience is getting outta control. shit shit.

anw, concert afterwards was quite fun. got some malu video of me trying to cry. everything's up on youtube (thanks to joel, grr) including the intro video, just search tj eclub june camp or smth like that. anyways, the concert totally overrun. and we had very very no time to pack up and all. and the announcement of the bod results was the shock of my life. i cant believe they played a prank on us (that was totally very real, omg) haha and i ended up as the assistant md in charge of marketing. hahaha very very shocking cuz i kindda knew a bit of the comm before hand, den suddenly like that. anw, we were all given a box to open, where the real post of ours would be inside, and and and i am the managing director of eclub! haha. seriously very shocking. i dunno why but i started crying. oh well, embarrasing story from here on. shall not mention. (: anyhows, i do hope that the bod will work well together and we'll not let anyone down. yups (: ahhh, pokxy i need your help!! ):

i am in love with the new paperchase notebook where i get to write down my thoughts, dreams, wishes, and things to do for the bod meetings, eclub meetings and all. thanks angel (: things arent gonna be easy, but i hope i'll survive! i love her heaps!

i am damn pissed off by * for not believing me. if you dont trust me den dont pick me. fullstop.

i know i am loved, but yet i still feel insecure. :S

i just came back from under no roof 2008, this poverty camp where you getta sleep on soggy cardboard on muggy grass, have baked beans and sardines with plain rice for dinner, eat plain white bread and banana for breakfast, and spend gazillion years trying to build a house made of paper. but luckily my group was good. hehe. the stupid guys from vj totally tricked us by changing their names at the start and introducing themselves differently. :S anw, the company was great! i love peiting, eileen and wynn. (: and not to forget my dear guigui who came down to visit us and got herself malu-ed. as well as POKXY (: (: for popping by to say hi and see that i was alright. yay i love you guys heaps. (: it was great getting away from technology and losing track of time for 30h, but by the 2nd day noon, i was dying to see my phone already. and, after i got it back, i would rather not have it. stupid * come and spoil my day. :S :S :S

i need to start studying NOW. so far far away behind time. i am so dead. :(

10:33 pm, Monday, June 02, 2008

i'd be off for eclub camp frm tmr till wed. please hope that i dont die frm fustration and irritation.

6:29 pm, Sunday, June 01, 2008

i believe in fairytales. (:

there's a lot of things i want to say, but i'm very lazy to type them out. and.. i'm in a very confused and heck care mood right now, though i want to make things better. life sucks.

special thanks to guigui for showing that you care. (: for calling me and asking how i was. i'm sorry for not picking up your call, cuz ur like withheld. and i swear its pure coincidence that i didint pick up your call today, cuz i got 14 missed calls frm withheld. and i wasn't sure if you called (if you did). D: i miss my crescent friends a lot. i miss the crescent building actually.

"xi shui chang liu" is a song that totally represents how i feel right now. so it is true as the time goes by, we'll still laugh at the jokes we used to laugh at? everyone's becoming more tired. and definitely older as the days go by. ):